Over the last 4 months, I’ve had an excessive amount of change happen in almost every facet of my life: work—I’ve switched positions from a travelling consultant to a stationary office worker, location—I stay in Dallas every week now (I actually feel like I live here now), financially—being local means I drive more and need to buy groceries so suddenly bills are going up, love life—Irish BF has moved to Dallas changing our ridiculously long distance relationship to a suddenly very short distance relationship, physical size—I’ve been expanding… All this drastic change has resulted in many things, but one in particular has bothered me to no end: severe neglect of my darling blog.
Why the blogging silence? It is most certainly not because I dislike blogging. No, it has had to do with my inability to drown out all the noise going on in my head. All this change has taken a lot of adaptation on my part, and I’m a person who thinks…and thinks…and thinks…about everything. For me, writing a blog post with all that white noise swirling around in my head is damn near impossible; hence, the lack of blogging.
As I was struggling with inability to silence my brain, I decided to seek advice from a new mentor. She told me I was letting my thoughts control my life. Her advice was to step out of my head and live my life. After chewing on that nugget of advice for a bit, I realized she was dead on. I was spending my free time worrying, pondering, analyzing, etc, etc rather than enjoying my exciting new life. I decided to take her advice by letting myself live in the moment, take deep breaths and quiet my worried thoughts.
One week after stepping out of my head, here I am writing a blog post. I am calmer and already feel like things have slowed down a bit. My stress levels are at a manageable level, and I feel more like myself.
If I ever notice myself going into frequent hyper-thinking moments (apparently my eyes open wide and glaze over when I give into my thoughts) again, I’m going to try and take a step back from it all. Life doesn’t happen in your head and being trapped in there is maddening.
That's me living life: making homemade pizza and drinking wine
I know what you mean; I am the same way. Living in the moment, and not worrying, is so freeing when you do it! Enjoy!
Krissy! Thanks for the comment. I am enjoying life a little more these days! I hope all is well with you and the kids. I bookmarked your blog